Floating

Lonely in a world thronged with people

Still in an endlessly evolving race

Confused among determined and decisive planners

Struggling to keep up with this pace

Not an idea about what I want to do 

Clueless about who I'm meant to be

Waiting for life to somehow, in someway

Reveal to me my identity

My musings and thoughts are outlandish

I'm second-guessing every choice

Craving a minute, or second to spare

A moment of silence to break the noise

As the days roll by and seasons change

I make an incessant internal plea

To please stop time from slipping away

And instead wait up for me

Overwhelming deadlines and schedules

A deluge of choices and an influx of tasks

A lost feeling clawing at me from the inside

Will at any moment shatter me like glass

In anticipation I hold my breath

As my face is buffeted by the breeze

Afraid of what the future holds

And where my life will lead me

As I trudge upon 

A different road

It is hard sometimes

To not feel alone 

When bobbing along to a different beat

Floating around in a different sea

Sailing away to a different shore

I'm diving far but not deep

A myriad of expectations pound my head

And pressurise my sanity

When external perceptions simply float in air

I truly need to focus on pleasing me

Though lost, confused, afraid

Surrounded by people gloating 

A golden spark of hope remains 

As I wait and remain floating